Sickness and Bad Luck

I was sick with a fever last night, yet I still worked on my legal memo for legal writing and research. I worked for at least 5 hours on it, until almost midnight when I just could not stay up anymore. With my head pounding, I went to bed, thinking I'd saved the file. You can guess what happened next. Just now, I opened the file again and found that none of my changes from last night had saved. I don't know how or why, I must have neglected to hit ctrl S somehow. I just don't remember anything, it's all a blur. All my days are a blur. I try to stuff so much in my brain that no many details about the day remain.

I also have been having bad weeks because I hate how law school forces me to be the annoying student that bugs the professor every week at office hours. In undergrad, I NEVER went to office hours. But now, all the upperclassmen's advice has been to go to office hours, learn what your professor wants. Really, you sure about that? B/c I go to office hours, and all I do is incur their annoyance. One prof told me to my face that my questions are too vague and don't show that I've thought about it(aka, airhead?!). Dude, the reason that I ask is b/c I'm totally clueless. Another prof gives me the look like he's forced against his will to entertain my questions and wants to get them over with as quickly as he can so that he can get back to whatever it is that really interests him. Maybe it's all in my head, maybe it's me being an overly sensitive, overly emotional woman projecting my insecurities. But I don't think so, I generally think that my intuitions are on point. And so what if they hate me, most males would push on ahead and try to get whatever they need, not caring about the vibe the other party's projecting.